Forgiveness & Faith

 Why I am Christian

              I became Christian because at first I believed it was a second chance at life. I had no idea how much I'd learn and grow on this journey and there is still an extensive amount to learn. Like everyone, I've made mistakes. But mine were eating me alive. I couldn't function properly because of regret and guilt. It honestly took a lot of Bible study on the topic of forgiveness and love for me to overcome my pain that I was going through. It took me a long time to understand that God forgives ALL and forgives us no matter what we do. That's why I love Christianity. 

            We are about growth, love and forgiveness. Being a baby Christian I can say, it took me almost a year to understand that forgiving myself was essential to forgiving others. When I am in a constant battle with myself, I can't focus on forgiving or helping others. The turmoil takes over and its all I can focus on. But I've learned, loving people takes patience and forgiveness. People WILL upset and hurt you and you will do it to others, intentionally or not. We are human. Its just a matter of how you decide to handle it. You can have severe anger (which gets you nowhere), or try your best to stay calm, listen, and when its over, forgive. But sometimes we hold onto anger, which is like drinking poison and trying to get the other person to die. If you want to grow, learn to forgive. This is one of the key foundations I've come to know in learning my faith.

             A perfect example of forgiveness in the bible is of Jacob and Esau. Jacob had stolen Isaac, their father's. blessing from him and taken his birthright. He was so angry he threatened to have him killed. For years Jacob fled away from his brother. But after twenty years he attempted to reconnect but was afraid because Esau was coming toward him with four hundred men. He believed he would be killed. So Jacob sent gifts to his brother ahead of him to meet him before he encountered him, himself. He was swallowed by fear but Esau showed mercy to his brother. 

But Esau ran to meet Jacob and embraced him; he threw his arms around his neck and kissed him. And they wept. 

Genesis 33:4

            Esau was merciful and kind, after years of guilt that Jacob felt he was able to find peace in his brothers arms. That's how God is with us, He shows us unmerited love and kindness. The Lord has had mercy on me, sometimes I feel like I don't deserve the love of the Lord. But we all do. I've learned God loves us no matter what mistakes we have made. We don't have to prove ourselves to him. 


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