Surrendering

Surrendering

           I've never been the type to "Live in the moment". I've always been trapped in the future or the past. When we get that way we get stuck and it usually it spirals into anxiety and depression. When we focus on futuristic events we get bombarded with anxiety, and when we focus on the past we are plagued with depression. We have to find a middle ground and I have only found it though my faith in the Lord. 

            Trust in the LORD with all heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.

Proverbs 3:5-6

            Its taken me a long time to come to terms with the fact that I can't control things that are out of my hands. But When I found God, I knew I could lean on him when I felt like life was out of control. I used to do everything I could to take control back in my life. I had an eating disorder, I did drugs, I self harmed. Anything to feel like I controlled what was going on in my life. 

            But with God I could let go. I could be myself, I could let things just "be". In a way that I never could before. I finally understood why people turned to religion, to find comfort and peace. God's love is one of the most comforting and satisfying things I've ever encountered. I never thought I'd be talking about Jesus and God in a biblical sense because of my back round. But believing and faith have brought me so much joy. Letting go and letting God just handle even day to day things is a huge burden off my shoulders. The closer you grow with Jesus the closer you get to surrendering and feeling that inner peace. 

            The more time you put forth with God, the more reward you will see in your waking life. Put him number one, remember he is everywhere, all the time. You can ask him for help in the smallest things, to the biggest. He's always listening. Don't count him out because you can't see him or you don't think your problem is big enough for him. He will help you with it all and if you listen he will start to give you direction. Always listen to God's voice, because when you don't, you'll wish you did. God gives us gifts for being obedient, trust in the process. 

If you love me, keep my commands.

John 14:15

            It's not to say our prayers wont get answered if we are not obedient. God just may have a funny way of answering your prayers. Some prays are left unanswered for a reason... Because it is not God's will for us. If it was he would have done it. It may just be God protecting us from a negative situation. But I just know, I'm thankful for unanswered prayers. Because I want to follow God's will for my life, the straight and narrow path (Matthew 7:13-14). I'm not here to please others but to serve God. When others treat me in a negative way, I know God is my vindicator and its not my job to hold onto it. I pray and let go and give it to him.

            When we follow God's will, and build a relationship with him, we are closer to finding peace in our hearts and surrendering to him. We are more likely to choose peace instead of anger. To love and not fight. To understand one another and not judge. Even in times of distress, you may find yourself extremely calm, that's God. He is a friend indeed, when you are in need. 

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